Life with Lily

Being a mom is nothing like I thought it would be. It's the most amazing thing I've ever done, yet I've never been more exhausted and emotional in my life. I'm hoping the emotional thing goes away soon, it seems I cry at least once a day. Breastfeeding is hard, with weird side effects that I was not expecting. But it's one of Lily's favorite things to do. Some nights are easier than others. For example, last night she wouldn't sleep in her bed for more than 30 minutes at a time. I finally just got some pillows and went out on the touch with her and she slept for hours in my arms. Which wasn't so bad except I can never sleep soundly when I'm holding her. Every movement and noise causes me to wake up and make sure she's ok. Brady thinks I'm crazy and a 'hover mother' because I never want her to go in the swing or stay in her bed if she's awake. Which, I'll admit, does make it hard to do anything but snuggle her all day so I'm trying to be better about putting her down once she falls asleep. I just love her to pieces and want to be with her all the time.

We put her in her room and have the monitor in our room now. I hate waking up to her crying but if she's in the room we never sleep. She is such a noisy sleeper! Makes noises non-stop. I guess it'll get easier. She's only just over two weeks old. And by easier I mean it'll get easier for me to put her in her bed when she's sleeping, etc. I doubt the sleep deprivation will get any easier. The lack of rest is finally catching up to me, I was on baby high for the first two weeks but now the late night feedings are really terrible. I can barely stay awake, which is ok, but mothers probably know what I mean.

But the pros outweigh the cons by a long shot. When I pick her up from bed she smiles and after I feed her she looks up at me and smiles. She is just the cutest thing ever. Seeing her with Brady is so great. It's hard not to squeeze her to death! Anyway, life as a mom is still unbelievable. I can't believe I have a daughter and that I can now call myself a mom. It's fantastic even if we haven't really been anywhere but the doctor. She told us on Monday that we shouldn't go anywhere either, since it's flu season so I guess we're staying home. Although I think maybe we'll try to get out and go for walks soon since I'm feeling almost 100%.

She weighed 9 lbs 12.5 oz at her 2 week appointment. At her 4 day appointment she weight 8 lbs 10 oz so she is definitely plumping up! And she'd grown 1.5 inches. It's hard to believe she's already getting so big!